To Vlog or Not To Vlog...

For a while now, i've had ppl ask me y I don't have a youtube and y I don't do video tutorials of my various makeup looks. To be honest, while in photos and in person, I can be fairly outgoing, when it comes to talking to a camera, not saying um, not rambling on about a bunch of nonsense and, above all, watching it and feeling satisfied... i'm not too sure of myself. So, as somewhat of a pacifier, I started making step-by-step photo collages. Even still, I am getting ppl asking me to actually show the steps being performed rather than pictures. Jeez Louise! That's not even asking for much, but I'm just so scared to do it. "scared of what?" u may be asking. And that's a good question!...... Look, as a youngster (yup, I said youngster, and shall not be judged!) I wasn't very confident in my appearance as a pre and early teen. of course, I grew out of my awkwardness and into feeling like I am a reasonably attractive girl, but the fact of the matter is that I still look at myself and see every little flaw... I know, I know, everyone is like that... but I don't care. haha!
    Anyhoo... a friend of mine pointed out to me that Mary Kay tends to showcase their cosmetics through soft, very neutral makeup looks. The blues, purples, bronzes... all super buildable and can be really vibrant, are super subtle in the catalogs and online. When I first got started with Mary Kay, I got a few Mineral Eye Colors and realized how rich the colors really can be. I have posted quite a few looks using all Mary Kay products just to show what these shadows can really do... But have I truly done my part? Today, one of my IG followers asked me to start doing video tutorials because she had just started her Mary Kay business and wanted to learn how to do great looking makeup with the products.... Sigh... I guess it's time for me to man up. maybe the good ol' folks at Mary Kay will see what i'm doing and.. shit, I dunno. lmao! I got some things to figure out... like when i'm going to attempt to create my first video tutorial! And now i'm scared. lol! stay tuned.....